We got divorced, legally. He is still drinking. He's been drinking off and on for several months. Now he's in rehab. My focus is still on him. I know that I need to focus on myself, move on with my life and stop dwelling on anything about him. I realize that I am sick too. I am codependent and it has become my life. This awareness is the first step toward changing who I am.
In my last post, I talked about getting off the train. I got off, but I am still walking beside it. I am watching the crash close up and yelling instructions to help prevent death and destruction. The problem is that I am getting hurt continuously by this role and somehow I need to learn how to live without him. I also know that detaching from him will help him to make the changes he needs to make on his own.
